Touching, Groping, Caressing, Fondling - While Sleeping

I came to know I badly wanted to be with this girl when I was 13. A 17 beautiful family friend of mine stayed in my house for 2 weeks regarding her college admissions. In the beginning, things went fine; she was plump, fair, gorgeous & sweet. She shared bed with me. Day by day, I started getting some different feelings for her, like I wanted to hug her tightly, but I never once got a situation like that. I fell in love with her navel. I believe hers was the greatest in the world, better than any actress, you see. I'll tell you how I knew this. When she was sleeping, I fondled her stomach, making love with it. I was touching her belly all over on her dress. I haven't touched it without her dress on top of it. For my comfort, she was wearing a satin dress & that day when I touched her stomach, I could feel her navel very well. Touching it barely or seeing her navel, I realized that it would be soooooooo heavenly. The other night, I was tempted to lift up her top to see it and feel it, but she woke up when I made the attempt. I somehow managed to convince her that I didn't do anything to her. Then I got scared and didn't try it once again. I never saw her after that, 3 years since then. But I still haven't lost that wish of caressing a beautiful stomach & making love with a navel like hers… Her stomach was curvy, pale, soft, beautiful, flawless,… But I was left with too much of dismay... I had a lot of dream. I wanted to kiss her; I wanted her to grab me and lean me against her; I wanted her to kiss me and let me touch her all over; I wanted her to take my hands and press it against her luscious breasts; I wanted to rest my head on her stomach and sleep like it was pillow... After 3 years... I'm 16 now. I'm in a long distance relationship with a beautiful American Angel. I haven't really met her before... but I have fantastic dreams on how to make love with her. I've known her for 5 months. And she just massages me everyday on her lustful thoughts of making love with me. The problem is - when I was 13, I got attracted to a pretty Indian girl for the first time. She was 16 then. I fell in love with her belly... her navel... her all. She's like the glamorous Indian girl you'll ever see... So fair & clear skinned. Despite I was just 13, I was tempted to attempt to lift ­her night dress to look at her bare stomach... which was failure as she woke up all of a sudden. She didn't know what I was about to do (Thank Goodness) Last week, she came for a stay over to our house again. Now she is a 19 year old beautiful lady... a Princess... even prettier that before. I couldn't control myself. On the first night of our sleep over, she took in some pills. I asked her what & she said they were for Migraine. She said migraine pills would make her sleep so heavily. The next day, she woke up at 10.30 am (which means she'd slept for 11 hours). So the next night, after she slept, I stroked her belly. She moved a little & this time, her arms stretched upwards... I got a sight of her lower belly. It was so beautiful. For that moment I forgot about my American Angel :( I was tempted to stroke her bare lower belly... OMG if felt like a rose petal. I then lifted up her night top & all I saw was heaven! I carefully caressed her belly... I squeezed it, massaged it, stroked it, felt it... and I MADE LOVE WITH HER NAVEL. Then I fell asleep... Then I woke up in the morning, I found myself hug her from behind. My one hand inside her T Shirt and the other right UNDER her breasts (not on her breasts) It was just a one day sleep over so she left the next evening. I was on top of the world for overwhelming 3 years of failed attempt. Now I'm really happy that I felt all over her belly. But I'm really worried I'd done something disloyal to my American Angel. She is deeply in love with me... and I regret for it. But my "first love" made me blind & tempted me to do this...